Valentines Day

So after only having moved to Los Angeles a month and 9 days ago, I find myself already back in Fairfield. Don't worry, it's only temporarily and I am thankful for getting to visit so soon already. Ben is working on remodeling a house that his cousins just bought so I tagged along for the free ride.

Being back for only a few days now has already given me such a clearer outlook on why I felt it was the perfect time for me to leave. Along with the freezing cold weather I have found that being in Fairfield, as wonderful as it may be sometimes, actually gives me strange pangs of anxiety that I don't feel when I'm in a big city. In Los Angeles no one but my close friends, housemates, and lover know me. I get to start over with a completely new slate. I get to choose that for the first time in my life I AM going to be independent, I AM going to focus on my career, and I am NOT going to to settle for second best and almost perfect. I have that choice and so does everyone else. I think having lived in Fairfield for my entire life I became a bit jaded and only looked at the positive things because it is my home. I will still always love Fairfield, but I am so thankful that I have the amazing opportunity as a young person to decide what I want to do with my life.

On that note and being that it is Valentines day and I'm feeling the love, I'd like to thank all the wonderful people in my life that I often don't thank enough. I am forever grateful for what you've given to me and the things you have taught me. Just two short years ago, I was at the lowest point in my life and look at me now thanks to all of your love and support. To my girls who I will always consider my best friends: Sammy, Tiffany, and Michelle without whom much of Middle School, High School, and College would not have been possible! To my girls in Iowa City Isabelle, Erin, and Kelsey who I got to know better once I was no longer attached at the hip to the man who broke my heart, and to all of you who together pulled me out of my place of depression as much as you could at the time. To my girls in Fairfield: Rosanna, Leah, Jessi, Molly, and Bug who made being back in Fairfield the most fun ever!

Of course I'd like to thank my family for never letting me forget to focus on the more important things in life and to Ben for being the most patient, understanding, loving, non judgmental person I've ever had the pleasure of spending my time with. I love waking up to your smile every morning.

Happy Valentines Day everyone! I love you!